What They Didn’t Tell You About Freedom On The Webinar

Alex Turner
7 min readSep 4, 2018

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I was drawn to the entrepreneur light like a moth to the flame. I had gotten so far in my business but I still felt limited, capped, stuck. Yes, there were periods when I had made a lot of money, but there were also had periods where I didn’t.

I spent a year abroad living the laptop lifestyle, but inside I felt like I was navigating towards a disaster, clinging aboard a ship called Hope.

Hope kept allowing me to buy into expensive programmes. Hope got me into debt. But I was extremely cheerful about it because I had goals, new business skills, and of course, Hope.

But it was never enough. I still felt stuck and I could feel the walls closing in . One great big wall was looming, as one celebrity coach helped me identify during a discovery call. We could both see it, but she didn’t have the integrity to really tell me what it really was. She just assured me that working together 1:1 was what I needed.

It wasn’t.

No action plan, no business strategy, no yoga pose, no candle, no herbal tea and no webinar was ever going to fix this until I could finally recognise it for what it was.

I was a codependent.

It feels shameful to write this. For years as a decent, ambitious, driven person, and latterly as an entrepreneur, I had no idea. I had my spirituality on, so I assumed I was good.

But that in itself is a tell tale sign. There is a direct correlation between spirituality and addiction — addiction is a like a cloak of crap around you, holding you from the truth.

Radical self love is a path to the truth, spiritual awakening, so necessarily radical self love is the cure for addiction. I was likely drawn to spirituality as a means to heal an addiction that I didn’t even know I was carrying. It was so ingrained.

Not that that made me feel any better of course. I literally went through the 5 stages of grief in one week where I read ‘Codependent No More’ by Melody Beattie.

I felt so broken, so shocked, so dysfunctional. But also finally free.

Alex Turner

Founder, feminist, entrepreneur, coffee + self care